april 4, 2010
one day i want to just go to the airport and just take the first plane that is boarding. i wanna see the whole world!
march 25, 2010
” I met this girl when I was 10 years old And what I loved most, she had so much soul She was old school, when I was just a shorty Never knew throughout my life she would be there for me on the regular, not a church girl, she was secular Not about the money, no studs was mic checkin her But I respected her,she hit me in the heart “
yes yes yall and you don’t stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
been listening to this song nightly. my thoughts talking aloud to me? i don’t know, i’m just feeling it. fuck bitches.
i don’t know why i am so lazy to explain myself sometimes.
march24,2010
“Love’s Deceit” by Big Rube
Pleasure turns to the pain of lessons learned from the strain of the questions burned in my brain about whether love is humane in its touch
These thoughts are like salmon swimming upstream in the tears of your deceit
Fighting a current hurt that kills more than is created by the chaos of our intertwined emotions
Chaotic because the anchor of Eros’ arrow has been plucked from the vessel of my undying infatuation
Separation not as simple as the distance between us
My mind no longer possessed by the demons that had been the overseers of my enslavement to your lies
The seeds of these lies rooted so deeply they’ve cracked the foundation of what we once shared
Allowing the faith in us I had sealed inside to gush out like a river
Ripping the image of our future together from my thoughts as violently and as brutally as if it were a child being taken from its mothers arms
I’m left surrounded in darkness but I refuse to be swallowed by it
My loneliness like night air; invisible to the eye obvious to the touch, in its cold uncomfortable ness
Yet If I could do all over again I’d do it in the same skin I’m in
To lay down and let love die, just stay down and let love lie
No, no, no, no, not I
I’ll stay around and let love fly
Even though I’ve seen its darkest form; deceit
Nothing else could tastes this warm or feel this sweet
3/10/2010
feel like i’m finding myself at a whole lot of crossroads. tired of saying the same shit everyday. at the moment i’m just on some mindless stuff. ask me a million questions and i’ll probably just be talking out of my ass to satisfy whatever deep thoughts. guess that’s just only a beginning though. really i try to think below or beyond the surface and i just keep drawing blanks. i don’t know if thoughts about love, life, and nature are a common place for me. even if they are i don’t know enough to piece everything together. to be completely honest all i’m thinking about is this straight line or path that i want to take. i mean i like to observe and take a look around………………….. you know i don’t know! Lol, gone on this bitch…………………………..be back another daayaaaah. fuckdabs (: mind full of shit, i got one.
